Your History Appreciates When You Appreciate Your History.
I'm Stephan Gardner and I help train high-net-worth professionals (mainly creative artists) to increase their self-awareness so they can feel more capable and powerful on the path of achieving their vision.
If you're like me, you are a creative person, probably a genius, definitely an artist of some type and have been given some pretty amazing starts in life.
You're probably gifted at many things, but truly masterful at things you love to do.
You might have a general feeling of deficient self-worth stemming from a wondering of why you are so talented and have been given so much.
As a result you have a hard time truly narrowing down what it is you would absolutely love to experience in life.
You've had some painful challenges in your past which no one completely helped you resolve and you are still carrying them as emotional gym weights.
This left you without the right emotional armor or capabilities to be able to feel like you function properly and as a result you often experience concern over thinking that you are living a second or two behind your life playing catch up with your own experience.
This probably led you down a path personal development or some type of therapy which has gotten you somewhere, but if you're honest, still has you far from experiencing a sustainable presence and appreciation for your life.
You have probably had poor training from your parents as they just weren't around (or got divorced) and that's left you without and understanding of how to be in ANY relationship meaning...
... you've gone through some relationship pain and grief that you can't seem to let go which has somehow led you to fear being close to another person, literally being scared to make a decision to stay or go in your relationships.
You've been dumped or have had to let go of people and it still hurts, 5 years after and you're emotionally blocked because of it.
You've been with the same person for a long time and are not feeling right with who you are.
You have confidence problems.
You're not engaged in your life as much as you feel you can be.
You're scared of rejection by people in suits and people you're attracted towards.
You stay at home too often instead of going out and knowing you can provide value to people.
You are probably really talented at a lot of things, yet have difficulty getting to work on anything.
You're using drugs as a way to enlighten yourself yet have a hard time deciding whether you are addicted or not.
You have a hard time not re-engaging in things you know you're addicted to even though you have responsibilities that you really need to get a handle on.
You have a hard time narrowing down who you are and what you would love to do AND you have an impossible time asking for and keeping money.
You probably have some wealth that has been given to you and you somehow struggle with level of emotional chaos as a result.
You often feel you have something inside of you that could change people's lives and you know how to get started but you're somehow frightened of starting it, meanwhile, you often take on other responsibilities that appear to detract joy from your life.
If that sounds like you, you know me pretty well.
Now let's look at what you want.
What you WANT is to feel more inspired, more often.
You want to feel like you love yourself and can love the people who love you already.
You want to feel like you have a purpose and you can rise to the occasion to get it done.
You want to feel more open to give and receive with less fear in the process.
You want to wake up and feel superior, not inferior.
You want to make setting boundaries an unconscious process so you can spend more time doing what's really important to you.
You want to know what you love doing and how you want to contribute to yourself and others.
You want to accept yourself and feel like your life has zero baggage attached.
You want to be able to communicate better with people and keep your power so you don't go back into passive behaviors which led you to hate your decisions later.
You want to feel more grateful.
You want to feel that you are a lighthouse for your friends and family and can be trusted and relied upon to be an example of excellence.
You want to feel like you can direct yourself and make the right decisions.
You want to feel less rocked by changes in your personal life so you can feel less like a victim and more like a master of your self.
You want to feel appreciative of what others have given you without guilt.
You want to feel appreciative of what you have given to others without resentment.
You want to feel more free from your past emotional pain and instead be able to channel yourself into action.
You want to be able to pay more attention to your life and less attention to the lives of others so you can focus more on what really matters and feel like you're doing something important.
Ultimately... you want to accept yourself, appreciate yourself, forgive yourself and love yourself.
Oh yeah... my name is Stephan and I'm a former television worker turned consultant for creative minds needing stabilizing and sanity in their emotions. I worked in business and political news for a decade while spending my evenings, weekends and vacations attending training seminars for personal development.
I strongly believe that I took a career in television because I wanted to understand my own programming as a child. My best friend was the television as kid and a career in television helped me understand how it's made and how it affects people (it is called television programming). This was a confirmed discovery I made early in my 'therapist' career when I was confronted with a client who had gone to see 35 different psychologists before ending up on my sofa. Through a hypnotherapy session, I discovered that the root of her depression and bipolar condition was rooted in her literally building her social life as a child around the television show Dawson's Creek.
This one session changed my entire understanding of how responsible (or not) people really are for their psychological well being.
After these early client experiences, I continued learning from the top-down and over time, I realized that giving a Ferrari to a five year old (high level psychological tools to a mind not ready for it) can lead to a disaster. This became my story and I ended up being addicted to self-help, alcohol and cannabis. This led me into the physical discipline of yoga (and cannabis) which totally changed my life and helped me appreciate what self-help and personal development is really about: selling you a band-aid to your own self created story of suffering.
The merger of medicine and yoga helped me understand that what people truly need is to feel good inside of themselves. We live in a culture where most people are deficient in their own control over their own chemistry. We don't feel fulfilled and as a result, we exist with negativity which produces it's own range of crap behaviors and emotions that lead us down the rabbit hole.
The reality is, the deeper you go down the rabbit hole, the darker it becomes.
I learned that the right way to achieve 'personal growth' is to remove what keeps you from feeling like you are not growing. This has everything to do with your ability to appreciate the people and experiences that have contributed to your life AND what you have contributed back to them in fair exchange. Without these two elements, you will run away from yourself and always feel something other than a natural state of flow, stability and gratitude.
It took me 10 years of personal development to understand how to deconstruct even the most 'advanced' psychological tools that everyone loves to spend money on learning, thinking that they next shiny tool will change their life. In reality, what changes your life is you, appreciating the life you have, which creates the emotional possibility of natural progression.
If you feel it's time for you to return to who you TRULY are, I might be good fit for you. I've been down the rabbit holes, I've peeled back the onions, I've done the shamanic spirit mother and father paths and eventually realized that the deeper you go down the rabbit hole, the darker it gets. When you peel an onion, you find more onion and you still cry and the shamanic paths (without the right training) can lead you into total disassociation from your real life.
All said, I might be a good fit. I might not, but I might.